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sister fussing about in the background....mumbles, "i'm going to sleep..."
me fussing about my new yellow buddha thread-"bracelet", not registering what sis said....
*click* off the lights went.
me: "WEI! CAN'T YOU SAY U'RE SWITCHING OFF THE DAMN LIGHTS?? I'M DOING SOMETHING HERE RIGHT?!!!"
sis: "what?! i already said i'm going to sleep!"
me: "no u didn't!" sis: "yes i DID!!"
me: thought for 2 secs and continued, "but you were mumbling, how the hell do i know u were talking to me!?"
this went back & forth for a while...
sis: "so you still want to quarrel issit?!!" (voice raises)
Stunned for 2 secs again, i replied: "so u're saying it's my fault for not hearing u lah!?!"
sis: "it's not your fault but it's also not mine wat! u still want to continue arguing issit?!"
me: *speechless*
*click* i switched on my table lamp. sis went to bed.
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Another incident...
ma: "#$%@#!!! I ALREADY SAID SO MANY TIMES YET YOU STILL SIT THERE FROZEN NOT HELPING ME!!"
me: "WTH?! what?! i didn't hear anything HOR!"
(honestly, i don't know whether she asked for me or not cos i'm so used to her naggings, they've become part of my environment "noise".)
ma: "you ah, so lazy...blah blah blah blah..."
me: *whatever*
kid bro: "oei. mama call u so many times to help her set e table for pai pai alr, why u still not moving, see, she screaming now."
me: "what?"
continues to stare at my computer, dazing and thinking about my own stuff....
then....
ma: "come n clear gigi's newspaper! very dirty alr!"
me: *still didn't register*
ma: *repeats x 2*
me irritatedly: "WHAT?!"
then the past 3 nags suddenly seemed to settle down like dust onto my memory bank, and i started moving slowly towards the kitchen to clear gigi's mess.
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sigh...what the hell is wrong with me? i think i've been behaving like a dispirited, distracted soul since...i think, about 2 years back?
everytime i'm mean to my own family, i really feel very bad. especially towards my mom. but i can't seem to stop it. it's getting habitual.
i just went for tarot card reading that day with soh at katong mall. we're so auntie, i think, to actually believe in such stuff. anyway, mary ann, our psychic, was intuitive and spot-on. she said baby actually helps me to grow up to be a woman without me realising it and i've lots to improve in terms of communication. and that baby actually really sayangs me deep down. actually i know that deep down too. :) and we're strong despite alot of fights (which is often becos of poor communication).
countless ppl had asked me why i still stick with this guy despite him not meeting the perfect guy criteria or sometimes, my own criteria. often i don't have the answer. i just can't give up on someone i still have feelings for, i guess. and i think the same goes for him. i told lian one day - "as long as both of u have feelings for each other, a rs would not be able to end. no matter what. it just wouldn't end." So i guess i can only be patient in the meantime, learn to be a better woman then wait for my fairytale ending.......oh like real! mary ann said that reality is reality, while fairytales always have a good ending cos they cut the story short - they don't say what happens after "happily ever after". Very true, indeed. Even if tarot card reading weren't accurate, at least mary ann was a wise old lady. had a very insightful session with her.
my supervisor, someone who has dated her schoolmate for 10-ish years, married for 5 years, said this to me one day when we were on the topic of relationships, "It doesn't matter what other people think. if you love a person, if he's the giver, that's a bonus. But if he's not and u have to work doubly hard, you'll just have to do that cos he's the one you choose to love."
ahh...well...
we'll see. i get upset & desperate once in a while when i can't tahan the "silence" anymore. it's a real struggle for me sometimes, the impatient nut! argh!
i really should focus on other things to accomplish in my life for the time-being -- and develop myself in other ways, for example, grow up and stop being a meanie & a procrastinator. -.-"'
or complete the million things on my to-do list....
1) continue driving lessons & get my license by july this year (cos that's when my advance theory is gonna expire...for the 2nd time!!)
2) sign up for my studiowu dance classes (it's been 2 long months since i've got hold of those vouchers!)
3) tidy my uberly messy wardrobe (i havent been able to find any clothes to wear everyday.)
4) file my 1-year worth of filing backlock @ work
5) do my 3-month worth of timesheets & expenses (that's maybe $700-800 of my own blood & sweat trapped with the company)
-.-"'
what else can i say but "Gambatte!", neh?
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now for some visual update...
See "who" i saw last week in the market! Baby Gigi! hehe.. no, i mean, Qiqi!
This little darling is soooo cute. the pics don't really do it justice. and it's a girl, just like gigi! in fact, she's called Qiqi! and 2 months old! just like gigi when we first got her. :D
she's adorable, eh? ;o)
And, Dad's got a new signboard just before CNY! Design courtesy of good old SS - my ultra nice creative colleague. :D Cost courtesy of me lar.
Dad's been getting alot of "attention"from his fellow stall-owners & customers becos of this...
A little quiz - Could you tell what the drawings are on each side of the panel?
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Chinese Panel
LHS: Onions
RHS: Can of Sardines
English Panel
LHS: Potatoes
RHS: Mushrooms
Many of the old ah-peks and old ah-bengs dunno how to appreciate art.. keep teasing my mom about the Can of Sardines drawings.. say they look like slippers..-.-"' super dotdotdot. and one tattoo uncle say the potatoes look like bread lor. so malu.
anyway although i myself couldnt really figure out the can of sardines too initially (heheheh), the rest looks recognizable immediately leh.
nonetheless, the more i look at it, the more i like it - not traditional & ah-pek looking like the usual ones, and the color & drawings - very "nai kan" (aka "won't get tired of the design")!
The other day, while searching for tarot card readers at maxwell road, me & soh chanced upon this uber-licious Korean restaurant at Murray Terrace - just beside Maxwell House. It's called "Korea Janchijib".
Both of us ordered the famous Bibimbap in a stone bowl....look at the pretty colors!
It was priced at $14/ea, and when we ordered we thought it was pretty steep for just one bowl of rice...until we saw this....
look at the number of side dishes or Banchan we've got! ....and to end it off, a very yummy rice-with-ice dessert too!! totally unexpected!
The chilled & crunchier version of Sikhye - a traditional sweet korean rice beverage, though usually served as dessert.
And it's only $30.80 in total. 5 out of 5 stars for this, definitely. *thumbs up*
